Walking into the lovely studios of FamilyLife where Dennis Rainey and Bob Lepine were waiting to interview me felt like a surreal dream. I sat in a leather chair and for 30 minutes, poured out my heart. Because I didn't rehearse or plan, I just dumped my heart right there on the table, hoping that their talented production team would edit out all the parts where I sound like a goober:) or, more importantly, the words where God is not glorified as the Faithful One. (Father, please let my story always and only glorify You.) As of the time I am typing this, I have not yet had the guts to listen to the broadcast that airs across the nation on Wednesday, August 15th, 2012. My trusted friend Becky listened and said I did not defame the name of Christ, for which I am relieved:) Actually she emailed, "I loved the interview! You don't need to feel afraid to listen to it - It's encouraging, warm, funny, godly and you did not share too much information! I know God will use it for His glory in the lives of many women who are struggling in their marriages and with motherhood." My story is complex (just as I'm sure yours is) so other than a heart dump in front of Dennis Rainey and Bob Lepine, I am unsure of how to share. I ache for God to be glorified. If there is a way that my scars can bring healing to another's journey... or if my words can glorify the Most High God... then I want to keep on showing these scars and opening this mouth. Not for fame. Not for self-healing. Not for money. For His glory and for the healing of His people. So... here's the link I'm not brave enough to click. If you listen, I hope you draw closer to God and that you clearly see His great faithfulness. much love, Lis
Lamentations 22-29 from The Message Bible:
22-24God's loyal love couldn't have run out,
his merciful love couldn't have dried up.
They're created new every morning.
How great your faithfulness!
I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over).
He's all I've got left.
25-27God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits,
to the woman who diligently seeks.
It's a good thing to quietly hope,
quietly hope for help from God.
It's a good thing when you're young
to stick it out through the hard times.
28-29When life is heavy and hard to take,
go off by yourself. Enter the silence.
Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear.